I am aware that many of us have been through so much in our respective lifetimes. Some have endured things others could never imagine themselves handling. I have written a semi-fictional story that entails a man's search for love and the pain he has come to know from it. One woman in particular is the main focus, though his journey has seen him through many relationships. Just because the main character is a man it does not suppose that this situation couldn't easily be reversed. In fact I have heard more stories of woman in this position than any other; perhaps that is because men are too proud though. Anyways the purpose is to let those of you who can relate know you are not alone.
Excerpts From the life of …
I am in my own prison; I have built these walls up around me from the beginning. (Ryan Owens 2005)
You search your entire life for that one special someone, the one, who will strengthen you in your weakness. One who will see past all your faults and still love you, not for who you might be, but for who you are. It seems an endless quest though. I have been through so many relationships I have become numb. I always find myself asking, "Why does it never work out," and always wondering if true love is only a myth. You end up in a relationship you think is right, so you get married and have a child. Only too late, you realize it could never work out. You cheat, she cheats. It is a vicious cycle. You find yourself to be the cause of pain, and also the bearer. Then it's over. Years pass and loneliness becomes the norm. Though you still search, it is with doubt and more meaningless relationships come and go. Finally you become so disenchanted you stop looking and settle for whatever is there at the time. Even though you are unhappy it is better than being alone.
And that is when she comes back into your life; you met her once long ago. There was always something powerful there, but circumstances were against it. As, you quickly realize, they are now also. Yet, there is this strange connection, beyond anything you have experienced before. It is not Lust; you're all too familiar with that. No, this is something else indeed. This is not a figment of the imagination. When she looks into your eyes, you completely melt and the numbness you've known for so long vanishes in an instant. That whole night all you can do is steal glances in her direction, hoping your enduring looks will not be discovered by the one she is with. Then somehow, the two of you end up alone, and you discover to your amazement that she too feels that connection. As if you were drawn together by some strange cosmic power.
I am in my own prison; I have built these walls up around me from the beginning. (Ryan Owens 2005)
You search your entire life for that one special someone, the one, who will strengthen you in your weakness. One who will see past all your faults and still love you, not for who you might be, but for who you are. It seems an endless quest though. I have been through so many relationships I have become numb. I always find myself asking, "Why does it never work out," and always wondering if true love is only a myth. You end up in a relationship you think is right, so you get married and have a child. Only too late, you realize it could never work out. You cheat, she cheats. It is a vicious cycle. You find yourself to be the cause of pain, and also the bearer. Then it's over. Years pass and loneliness becomes the norm. Though you still search, it is with doubt and more meaningless relationships come and go. Finally you become so disenchanted you stop looking and settle for whatever is there at the time. Even though you are unhappy it is better than being alone.
And that is when she comes back into your life; you met her once long ago. There was always something powerful there, but circumstances were against it. As, you quickly realize, they are now also. Yet, there is this strange connection, beyond anything you have experienced before. It is not Lust; you're all too familiar with that. No, this is something else indeed. This is not a figment of the imagination. When she looks into your eyes, you completely melt and the numbness you've known for so long vanishes in an instant. That whole night all you can do is steal glances in her direction, hoping your enduring looks will not be discovered by the one she is with. Then somehow, the two of you end up alone, and you discover to your amazement that she too feels that connection. As if you were drawn together by some strange cosmic power.